4th of July
On the fourth of July the air smells of sulphur
and i walk outside for a moment, surprised in spite
of myself to find that i want to hope
my son says that the sounds are like gunfire
that the air is full of violence
that the holiday is based on violence
and i don't know what to say i say
yeah, but the colours are pretty and
he serves the scorn i know i have coming.
i always want the fireworks to be more to be
a thing from my fantasy a thing
brilliant with passion and belief and more
that someone, somewhere thought was worth making
into a scene across the sky. but
i watch the garish lights and i watch the rapt faces and
i feel cold, as always, watching
all the other faces that want to believe.




